It has always been next to impossible for me to notice when things are not quite right with my relationship with God when things are going smoothly. I never really struggled with having time for God when I have things or when I am being placed in certain dream places. Oh no, those times, my bible is never far away, tithing becomes second nature and in my head we are all one big family. Or so I think? But he knows better and when the tide turns, I realize just how low I really have been. All thanks to that seemingly invisible sin called Pride. Even though in the good times, I am grateful for his goodness and mercies, deep down I believe I deserve what I have. The miracles, the amazing experiences and all the other goodies in my life. After all, I have worked for it. Therein lies the root of my problem as the bible has said in proverbs 16:18, “Pride goes before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall.” And also in proverbs 18:12, “Before his downfall, a man’s heart is proud, but humility comes before honor.”
That little feeling that comes up when someone you feel you are better than get something above you, sorry that isn’t joy on their behalf but pride saying you deserve it not the person. Sometimes, the feeling can be easily ignored and left to fester inside which God knows and always want to do something about. So things turned in ways I wasn’t used to. I wasn’t the star anymore but among the spectators and at that point I discovered the sin in me. I think it may be safe to say that almost all sin , if not all, generate from pride. Think about it for a minute. Jealousy, both ‘healthy’ and ‘unhealthy’ (as the world seems to have divided it into these days) and many more that would probably take up the entire space all have their foundation firmly rooted in that pesky demon.
At my low point, It became harder to connect because I felt confused. I felt a bit upset too because things were taking longer to work and not as impressive. Now the pesky demon is rearing its ugly head and even though I couldn’t pinpoint my problem, I knew there was one. It is very easy to excuse yourself of certain behaviors and fail to see the wrong in them. A trait that as believers we should fight against because the rejoices at our night blindness. Joyce Meyer said some things that helped me realize just where the problem was (or rather exhausted my excuses and forced me to face the problem). In one of her messages, she said “Humility and patience are probably two of the hardest virtues to come by. But the truth is, all impatience is a manifestation of pride. If I can’t stand to wait on that promotion or wait for anything, it’s because I think I am too important to wait, and I should be getting what I want right away.” Word!
It didn’t matter what I am or how good I thought I was, what mattered was I thought I was what mattered. I forgot that Humility wasn’t about lowly placing yourself but acknowledging at every point that “it isn’t me, it’s you God’. Also its realizing, anyone deserves to be on top because God is no respecter of persons and if your desire is to see his will done then anyone will do as long as God’s work is getting done.
Don’t be in too big of a hurry to be in the limelight somewhere, to have your name on the office door at work or to have somebody call you the boss or the leader. God will choose who He puts where, and if He puts you there, then be humble about it and do what He asks you to do.
Even if He asks you to clean the toilet, then be just as happy to do that. You’re not going to be rewarded for whether you did what the world would call a great thing. Your reward is going to come because you obeyed God and were willing to do what He asked you to do.
This article is by Bunmi Obanawu. She is a regular contributor to the Yada Magazine website and lives in London.
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